Post by Dave on May 10, 2011 17:38:55 GMT
The Walk For Carol
The image of my dear Carol's heart stop beating right before my eyes, is one that will hurt me deeply for the rest of the years I have left trying to live without her. That heart belonged to a very special and beautiful lady both outside and in, a lady who always put others before herself and a lady who just had so much love to give to everyone.
I was so lucky to have spent the most happiest nineteen years of my life having her in it, her love was true, meaningful and a love that would never die. She was such a rare lady, she never complained, moaned, or anything, she woke up happy everyday and stayed that way the whole day long.
Nine and a half years ago she took it on the chin when she learned she had a very rare type of breast cancer. She was happy to have bits of her body sliced off here there and everywhere. Happy to have nasty drugs pumped into her and happy to swallow enough pills to make her rattle when she walked.
WHY? because she wanted to live to grow old and not die, she loved living and even when in such pain, still smiled, still never complained and not once during her illness said why me.
Its one of the reasons I loved her so much, its the reason I have so much respect for her, why I know there could only ever be one Carol.
For nine years she refused to let that cancer stop her from doing one single thing she wanted to do and I felt honored and proud to hold her hand and do all I could to help her fight and stay alive.
Sadly six months ago the cancer stepped up its game and started to win and yet she still refused to lay down and die and still fought as hard as she could, even when I knew myself her life was soon going to end.
I don't know how she walked all those miles with me during the second week of October 2010, maybe she knew there were never going to be anymore Carol and Dave walks together.
Just a few weeks later she went from nine and a half stone in weight to well under six stone. I would joke with her she was my skeleton covered in skin,but I will tell you what, I loved that skeleton because it was still my Carol who still somehow managed to smile.
A month before she passed away, she shocked everyone by turning up for work at Jack Sears nursing home, I still don't know how she even got up off the bed that day, let alone get to town and then work for the whole day. Did she just want one more day at work doing what was so very dear to her heart caring for others?
Yes, it is so wrong that dear Carol had her life cut so short, so wrong she had to suffer so much pain as did and that is why I can't and won't let the fact her heart did stop beating, be all for nothing. That is why there is going to be THE WALK FOR CAROL.
A walk to honour her and raise as much as possible for cancer research in the hope that one day ladies like Carol won't have to die the way she did.
I would love as many people as possible to do THE WALK FOR CAROL, I hope others will want to just help raise as much money as possible in her name.
All the details of the walk are below and I have also put up the forms for all to see that can be obtained by sending a PM to lou or emailing her at saffishaw1@hotmail.co.uk
these forms can then just be printed by yourself and used, if you do not have a printer then Lou will post you the forms.
You can also just give a donation on our just giving website.
www.justgiving.com/walkforcarol
